Someone once told me that when life sends you lemons, lob them right back.
It’s been an incredibly frustrating and stressful week.
Sunday for about 3 hours or so, my cable and thus internet was out. Because I am on-call for my job, I require the use of the internet at a moment’s notice to be able to dial into the computers at my workplace so I can fix the problem. It actually is an emergency when such a thing occurs and it affects people’s lives. I take it quite seriously. When I talked to their support people then, they said that it was an area thing or rather that someone else in my area was having a problem too and that they were sending someone out to fix it. It was fixed that afternoon.
Monday morning when I woke up, there was no cable or internet. I called again. They said they’d send someone out. I have no idea if they did because there was a huge electrical storm across the state that afternoon and that’s when all kinds of weirdness started at work. When I got home, there was not cable or internet and the message on the support line said that my town was experiencing outages.
Tuesday morning when I woke up, there was no cable or internet, but there was no more message on the support line, so I talked to the support people again and they said they’d send someone out. I’m guessing they did because when I got home, there was cable and internet which is good because I was up all night putting out virtual fires through my internet connection to my job.
It was short lived, however, because Thursday morning I woke up with no cable or internet again. The support line seemed surprised to hear from me. I don’t know why. Anyway, they can’t send anyone out until tomorrow and now I have to be present in case they want to come into the house, though I can’t imagine what the problem could be inside the house since there are two connections coming from outside and all the connections are out. Of course, the time period I have to wait for is from 8am to 5pm, which you know means that he’ll be there at 5 til 6pm. So I have to take a whole day off from work and use a vacation day just so I’ll be able to do my job…and have internet and cable.
And I’m extremely pissed off about the whole thing.
But, I’ve been trying to put some sort of positive spin on it. So, I decided to make a to-do list of things that need to be done around the house. Since I can’t watch t.v. or surf the internet and read blogs and Thursday Thirteeners, I have no excuse to not get some chores done and I know I’ll feel better once my house is cleaned up a bit.
Then motivated by that burst of positive movement, I ordered the new laundry hamper I know I needed and the light therapy lamp I’ve been considering.
I’ve decided that it’s time to stop dragging my feet and start doing something about everything. Not cleaning my house is not helping my depression; it’s just perpetuating the problem. When I seen the mess, I feel worse about myself and more and more overwhelmed, but I just keep procrastinating because I’m depressed, and on and on. And I’ve seen some success from adding the melatonin to my nightly routine and I’ve heard that light therapy does good things for people with sleep disorders and depression and I decided to stop dragging my feet with indecision about which lamp to buy and the cost and just do it.
Meanwhile all hell has broken loose at work and there’s all kinds of fires to put out. I’ve asked a co-worker to take over my call tonight and tomorrow until my internet is fixed. It was a big deal to ask this favor. Normally I don’t like to ask for help — I think I got the idea from my dad that asking for help shows weakness.
So, I’m trying to make the best out of an annoying situation. I’m trying to ignore the fact that my routine has been royally screwed, which really makes me anxious. And I hate having the silence in the house with no t.v. going. I’m going to have to hook the iPod Mini up to the entertainment center and test how well you can hear the music upstairs and out in the dining room.
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